Tuesday, June 30, 2015
Saturday, June 20, 2015
Losing Weight And A Loss
I am back...FOR REAL this time. Life got the best of me lately but I have no excuses anymore so I will be blogging consistently---at least once a week from now on. I promise. If I fall out again please hunt me down and slap me or just email and say hellooooo where are you?
Some exciting news--- I am officially down 52.6 lbs from my high weight. I am now at 188.4. The day I saw my weight in the 100's I did a happy dance. I haven't been this low in weight in years. My overall goal I have now set is too lose 100 lbs from my highest weight so my long term goal is 141 lbs. I have not been exercising at all but I plan to start at least 5 days a week.
I am struggling with energy and have found a few things that help. Spark which I just ordered some of and I get it on Tuesday. So excited! I used to drink this so I am glad that I can still have it. 15 calories, 4g carb, NO SUGAR! The other thing I have drank now and then is Monster Rehab. I really like the new peach tea and Green tea flavors. 10 calories, 3g carb, 2g sugar.
I really need to exercise as my stress has been through the roof lately. Unfortunately my Grandma passed away 3 weeks ago. I was very close with her and it has been a rough time for me and my family. My Grandma was an incredible woman and my heart aches everyday without her. My Grandma was extremely supportive of my surgery and had been there cheering me on every step of the way. When she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer back in January the first thing she said to me was "You are not going to put off your surgery because of this". She was always thinking of everyone else. I am glad that she got to see me get as far in my journey as I am and know that I am on the right path.
When you lose someone you love it completely shatters you to the core. It makes you question everything in your life. I am already going through major emotions with my weight loss and "Finding Myself". Now even more I am questioning what I want in life. Life is so short and I am realizing that now. One thing that I have been thinking and dreaming a lot about is why did I ever stop writing? Creative writing was my passion growing up and I live in the state where the number one university for creative writing in the US is located. Even with the blog I feel like I have put off blogging because I am scared of writing. I don't know why. I don't know if its a fear of failing or what it is.
The crazy thing about life is when you aren't looking the time just slips away from you. I have been out of high school for 8 years now. The last real vacation I took was 5 years ago. The last relationship I had was 4 years ago. I am turning 25 in less than a month. While the list of things I have accomplished is amazing there are so many more things I want in life. I keep feeling like my dreams and the signs I am getting are my grandma telling me "It's not too late but start now". The quarter-life crisis is major right now...
Some exciting news--- I am officially down 52.6 lbs from my high weight. I am now at 188.4. The day I saw my weight in the 100's I did a happy dance. I haven't been this low in weight in years. My overall goal I have now set is too lose 100 lbs from my highest weight so my long term goal is 141 lbs. I have not been exercising at all but I plan to start at least 5 days a week.
I am struggling with energy and have found a few things that help. Spark which I just ordered some of and I get it on Tuesday. So excited! I used to drink this so I am glad that I can still have it. 15 calories, 4g carb, NO SUGAR! The other thing I have drank now and then is Monster Rehab. I really like the new peach tea and Green tea flavors. 10 calories, 3g carb, 2g sugar.
I really need to exercise as my stress has been through the roof lately. Unfortunately my Grandma passed away 3 weeks ago. I was very close with her and it has been a rough time for me and my family. My Grandma was an incredible woman and my heart aches everyday without her. My Grandma was extremely supportive of my surgery and had been there cheering me on every step of the way. When she was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer back in January the first thing she said to me was "You are not going to put off your surgery because of this". She was always thinking of everyone else. I am glad that she got to see me get as far in my journey as I am and know that I am on the right path.
When you lose someone you love it completely shatters you to the core. It makes you question everything in your life. I am already going through major emotions with my weight loss and "Finding Myself". Now even more I am questioning what I want in life. Life is so short and I am realizing that now. One thing that I have been thinking and dreaming a lot about is why did I ever stop writing? Creative writing was my passion growing up and I live in the state where the number one university for creative writing in the US is located. Even with the blog I feel like I have put off blogging because I am scared of writing. I don't know why. I don't know if its a fear of failing or what it is.
The crazy thing about life is when you aren't looking the time just slips away from you. I have been out of high school for 8 years now. The last real vacation I took was 5 years ago. The last relationship I had was 4 years ago. I am turning 25 in less than a month. While the list of things I have accomplished is amazing there are so many more things I want in life. I keep feeling like my dreams and the signs I am getting are my grandma telling me "It's not too late but start now". The quarter-life crisis is major right now...
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